I did not want to join blogspot again but my friends forced me to do this and write here with new starting point.
I did a new start. But I think it is just a new blog nothing new goes to happen in my life.
I am a depressed person. This is my reality. I want to start with this reality. This is my real introduction. Because a depressed person can not have anything else.
Depression swallows slowly-slowly all of your good things, good qualities, carreir, study, social life, mental health, physical health, relationships. You becomes careless about your clothes, body, room, home, food, study, carrier, relatives etc. The bad thing is nobody understand you, but worst is nobody wants to understand you. They think you are stupid or mad. Nobody thinks that you are ill, you are sick, because there is no sign of any illness. They only think that you are a careless person, who can't do (or don't want to do) anything in his life. They dont understand that you need medication. Not physical but mentally. Yes, I want cure, but nobody support me. Nobody believe in me.
Now, I want a change. No, I dont think that I am going to fight with this depressed feelings or not, but I want a change. Not a big change, very little change.
I want to start a fight against depression. Who will be winner, I don't know. If I lose, nothing will be new for me. I am the biggest loser in this world.
Actually, it is not a fight, it is a kind of rising myself for me.
I did a new start. But I think it is just a new blog nothing new goes to happen in my life.
I am a depressed person. This is my reality. I want to start with this reality. This is my real introduction. Because a depressed person can not have anything else.
Depression swallows slowly-slowly all of your good things, good qualities, carreir, study, social life, mental health, physical health, relationships. You becomes careless about your clothes, body, room, home, food, study, carrier, relatives etc. The bad thing is nobody understand you, but worst is nobody wants to understand you. They think you are stupid or mad. Nobody thinks that you are ill, you are sick, because there is no sign of any illness. They only think that you are a careless person, who can't do (or don't want to do) anything in his life. They dont understand that you need medication. Not physical but mentally. Yes, I want cure, but nobody support me. Nobody believe in me.
Now, I want a change. No, I dont think that I am going to fight with this depressed feelings or not, but I want a change. Not a big change, very little change.
I want to start a fight against depression. Who will be winner, I don't know. If I lose, nothing will be new for me. I am the biggest loser in this world.
Actually, it is not a fight, it is a kind of rising myself for me.
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